As this comp gets to a starting point i am getting nervous, for several reason. The first is I have never told anybody how much i weigh( well except the ww weigh in lady). This is a HUGE step for me. I guess being willing to do this means i am ready to shed the weight. It took me 15years to put this on and being in this body for that long has been a shield. It scares me to loose that sheild. I know that sounds stupid, but it is something i need to get over. I am ready to have the body i use to have when i was swimming. I know this will take tons of dedication. I am a competitive person especially when it come to sports. I love to run , but have to really be careful with my rheumatoid arthritis. My goal is to swim 100 miles before june. I really want to run a half marathon this year too. Any way It is time to shed my inhibitions and just do it, post my weight for the world can hold me accountable. I think i might just be the heaviest person in this comp too. That makes me a little self conscience, but what the hell it will be gone. I want to be the runner and swimmer i use to be, but older and wiser! Here is to weight loss in 2010!